24 August 2010

Fat

Some people might consider me to be fat. I do not however consider myself to be fat. I like to think of it a bit differently. I HAVE fat. I have a little bit extra here and there, but it doesn't define me. Though I will not let myself be defined by this word, I have come to terms with the fact that 1/3 of me IS in fact fat. Now, what am I going to do about this?

First of all, my ovulation predictor tests have all been coming back negative.

In fact, the little pink line (the one that is supposed to be dark if I am about to ovulate) keeps getting lighter each time I take a test. So, I am not allowing myself to get my hopes up regarding impending pregnancy. Instead, I am going to whip myself into shape so that when I try this conception thing again in late December, I will go into it not only looking good, but in the best physical and mental health of my life.

My problem with the Hibiscus Half Marathon goal, was that I concentrated too much on the goal of finishing the race. I SHOULD have been concentrating on just being fit and healthy. I didn't eat right at all, or even monitor progress. As long as I was going to finish the race in a decent amount of time, that's all that mattered. That was the completely wrong idea. However,I achieved my goal! Now, at least I know I can do something if I really set my mind to do it. I just need to make more specific goals about the results I want to see happen to my body!

Today I signed up for twice weekly boot camp classes for the month of September. I actually paid money, which is really unlike me because there are free classes at the base gym. Anyway, the classes include child care on site, and actual documentation of progress. I was weighed, taped, and what not.

I am 35% FAT! Technically, that is 'at risk'. ICK! Today I learned that I am made up of approximately 5 pounds of bones, 90 pounds of muscle, 5 pounds of hair/skin/teeth/etc...and 55 pounds of FAT! I do not like that ratio.



At the little measurement meeting I had with Christina (the boot camp chick), she also gave me a little diet coaching. THIS is my big downfall. She suggested doing (or not doing) things that I couldn't ever imagine doing. Not eating past 7:30 pm EVER? No freaking way! No carbs past 10 am? No freaking way! But then I realize that there is a reason that I didn't lose a SINGLE pound while training for a half marathon. My eating habits SUCK. I have always just accepted this as something that will never change, because unlike Kate Moss I think there are plenty of things that taste better than skinny feels! However, I have a new goal, a goal that will require me to do things that I don't necessarily want to do. Don't all real goals require that at one point or another anyway? I am going to try, really try, to follow her eating guidelines for the month of September.

I will take a before picture on September 1st, and I will post it ON September 1st. If I wait to see if I actually have results before posting the before photo, I will not be nearly as motivated to produce results. Hopefully, that will add some accountability.

I realize that nobody who reads this blog is even nearly curious about what I will be eating, or the exercise that I will be doing (I will be running for cardio three times a week in addition to the boot camp classes), so even though I will be logging all of this for my personal benefit, I won't post all of the details online. BUT, if you want to pop in and comment on facebook, something like, "Amy, you better not be eating any crap right now!" that would be greatly appreciated...because I need accountability. Be mean even! :)

This boot camp has the added bonus of competition. There is a biggest loser prize each month. Unfortunately, I don't have a very good chance at wining because I just don't have as much to lose as some people. But, that is not going to stop me from trying! I am very competitive, and competition is one of the best motivators for me!

Let's do it!!!

15 comments:

Kaysie said...

Okay Amy, I'm going to hold you accountable! You have to be in the right mindset to do something like this, and it really seems like you are. But just know, I'm going to be asking you how it's going and hopefully you won't say "Oh, I just can't do it. I like food too much." OR "I'm just too tired to work out." Obviously I can relate to both instances ha! But still, I know you're able to achieve this goal for yourself!

Erika said...

If you're fat, then I'm a super model and I've posted for Playboy.

YOU'RE NOT FAT!!!!

Team Hayes said...

Kaysie, thank you! Do it!

Erika...reread the second sentence, chick!

And, was that May 2009? Brad said he thought someone in that issue looked familiar. :)

Sarah said...

Amy, I would be happy to be an accountability buddy for you! I have done something similar before, and understand how important it is and how much it can help.

My new favorite quote, that I plan to put in action after this baby is born and 6 weeks old: You can't out-train a bad diet.

This is so true, you could workout for 4 hours a day, 7 days a week, but if you eat like crap (which I am totally guilty of), you aren't going to get the results you want. You are going to improved cardio health and lose some body fat, but your results will just not measure up to all of your hard work. YOU can do this!

Kaye said...

No carbs after 10AM?!?! I would kill myself. I want to know what you're eating and how your exercising! I need to eat healthier too. Anytime you start to put something not so good into your mouth you text me and I'll call you and talk you down. :) Or just come take it out of your mouth. :)

Abby said...

People actually consider you fat? Crazy folk, I'm sure. I think you look great but totally understand wanting to improve yourself. And hey, being super healthy before next baby will only make for a better pregnancy! (and look out, I was trying for **THREE** years to get pregnant with this one..and it wasn't until I dropped 60 pounds that it happened). Go, Amy, go!! Put down that fucking cookie and those Godiva chocolates that you love so much!! Wooo!!!

Team Hayes said...

Kaye, you are now my official OEA sponsor.
Abby, I haven't gotten my free Godiva truffle for like 3 months! Thanks for reminding me. I still have time to get my one for August! Haha. Just kidding. Not going to happen. I see you testing me!

Amanda Evans said...

You're not getting your truffles because I'm not there. Or else we'd have had them on 2 Aug. LOL~

Good luck with the plan! I'm sure you'll do great! Now I'm going to thumb thru my iPhoto and find a skinny Amy picture and post it on your wall to motivate you. I have tons of them, you skinny chikca!

Amanda Evans said...

WHAT??? You're screening your comments???

Patty said...

Ok, I was just there a few months ago. Motivated to lose those last few pounds of baby fat!! Well, let me tell you that it was a LOT of work and keeping up with it is still a LOT of work. But I do have to agree with the carb issue. 10 am is a little extreme but I eliminated carbs just at dinner and didn't eat after 8pm. If I was hungry after dinner, i drank a protein shake. It totally worked!! I got my body fat down to 19%.

It just takes dedication and I know you have that!! I will do my best to help keep you motivated as I am training for my first sprint triathlon in September.

YOU GO GIRL!!

Team Hayes said...

Patty, I wish I could call this baby fat. Unfortunately, I am fatter now than I was at Kylie's wedding in January. Regardless, it is fat that I need to be free of! :)

Cori Gentry said...

Noooo there goes our pregnancy pin ups! Sadness. Anyhow... I can't believe we are close in how much fat we have... because I think I have at least 40 pounds on you and I'm not taller. I see you as super skinny but the % doesn't lie. Good luck and I def want to hear all about it. My life has to revolve around what I eat and exercise, and though I dont totally agree with the diet they are putting you on (good for now, but not long term), I'm sure it'll work! Can't wait to see the results! I 100% agree with your attitude!

Team Hayes said...

Cori, the diet is not supposed to be a long term thing. She recommended it for a month only, to kick start weight loss. She said it is easier to maintain weight than to lose it, so to crack down for a short term to get results. Then, ease into a less strict diet in order to maintain those results.

Anonymous said...

Oh I want to know what kind of food diet this trainer gave you.. I need to loose weight as well..

Steph =D

Cori Gentry said...

That's what I figured. I'm not a fan of the whole "no eating after such and such time" or "carbs here, none there" because I spent so much time in my office trying to convince people that if you eat 3000 cal before 7:30pm you are going to be just as fat than if you eat them after whatever your magic time is. It has nothing to do with metabolism... but makes that strategy work is that you are eliminating that after dinner snacky time, which is great. I'm all for balance when it comes to carbs unless you have a medical condition (like diabetes or PCOS) that makes you respond to carbs differently. I like the Cooper's Institutes perspective on diet: you need the perfect balance of protein, fats and carbs. I think this little diet will shake whatever hold carbs have on you (it takes about 2 weeks to get over cravings) and then you can replace your bad carbs with good ones without going into shock. Have you gone to any of the bootcamp classes yet? If I was hardcore I think doing Crossfit would be awesome. But I'm not hardcore, I'm pregnant.