Some people might consider me to be fat. I do not however consider myself to be fat. I like to think of it a bit differently. I HAVE fat. I have a little bit extra here and there, but it doesn't define me. Though I will not let myself be defined by this word, I have come to terms with the fact that 1/3 of me IS in fact fat. Now, what am I going to do about this?
First of all, my ovulation predictor tests have all been coming back negative.
In fact, the little pink line (the one that is supposed to be dark if I am about to ovulate) keeps getting lighter each time I take a test. So, I am not allowing myself to get my hopes up regarding impending pregnancy. Instead, I am going to whip myself into shape so that when I try this conception thing again in late December, I will go into it not only looking good, but in the best physical and mental health of my life.
My problem with the Hibiscus Half Marathon goal, was that I concentrated too much on the goal of finishing the race. I SHOULD have been concentrating on just being fit and healthy. I didn't eat right at all, or even monitor progress. As long as I was going to finish the race in a decent amount of time, that's all that mattered. That was the completely wrong idea. However,I achieved my goal! Now, at least I know I can do something if I really set my mind to do it. I just need to make more specific goals about the results I want to see happen to my body!
Today I signed up for twice weekly boot camp classes for the month of September. I actually paid money, which is really unlike me because there are free classes at the base gym. Anyway, the classes include child care on site, and actual documentation of progress. I was weighed, taped, and what not.
I am 35% FAT! Technically, that is 'at risk'. ICK! Today I learned that I am made up of approximately 5 pounds of bones, 90 pounds of muscle, 5 pounds of hair/skin/teeth/etc...and 55 pounds of FAT! I do not like that ratio.
At the little measurement meeting I had with Christina (the boot camp chick), she also gave me a little diet coaching. THIS is my big downfall. She suggested doing (or not doing) things that I couldn't ever imagine doing. Not eating past 7:30 pm EVER? No freaking way! No carbs past 10 am? No freaking way! But then I realize that there is a reason that I didn't lose a SINGLE pound while training for a half marathon. My eating habits SUCK. I have always just accepted this as something that will never change, because unlike Kate Moss I think there are plenty of things that taste better than skinny feels! However, I have a new goal, a goal that will require me to do things that I don't necessarily want to do. Don't all real goals require that at one point or another anyway? I am going to try, really try, to follow her eating guidelines for the month of September.
I will take a before picture on September 1st, and I will post it ON September 1st. If I wait to see if I actually have results before posting the before photo, I will not be nearly as motivated to produce results. Hopefully, that will add some accountability.
I realize that nobody who reads this blog is even nearly curious about what I will be eating, or the exercise that I will be doing (I will be running for cardio three times a week in addition to the boot camp classes), so even though I will be logging all of this for my personal benefit, I won't post all of the details online. BUT, if you want to pop in and comment on facebook, something like, "Amy, you better not be eating any crap right now!" that would be greatly appreciated...because I need accountability. Be mean even! :)
This boot camp has the added bonus of competition. There is a biggest loser prize each month. Unfortunately, I don't have a very good chance at wining because I just don't have as much to lose as some people. But, that is not going to stop me from trying! I am very competitive, and competition is one of the best motivators for me!
Let's do it!!!